Karma is not through with me yet or Karma;s K.O.




As Karma would have it I just thought she wae done with me.......
But she had somethig else in up her sleeve for me.As karma would have it my parkisonsn was not playing fair it seem to go its own way and do its own thing.
I am sent for a second MRI of my brain and got the results from my Dr.that very day, the way it was explained to me my cerebllum it is like a tree with many branches and mine is damaged with several of its branches missing they are just not there.

So my Dr. referred  me to a Dr. a specialist in the fiield of all things neurology he was so special in his field it took me 3 months to get an appointment.

After tons of questions and a through neruo exam he broke the news to me that I have something called Multi-System Atrophy say that 3 times fast he tells me the outcome is grim grim and grimmer. That the outcome is not good there is no cure I sit there nodding my head what am I to do with this information do I give up now or do I stay and fight the good fight?
 I have never even heard of this diease how can I have it? Like milk slowly going bad I have an expration date. This disease is rare and is sort of like Lou Gergio's it will rob me of my ability to walk, talk and basic everyday funtions it has already wrecked havoc on my hand eye coordination, and my speech I sound like a stroke patient I sturggle with basic functions till I cry out in fustration. I rely more and more on the help of others something I as someone who has aways been independent really hate.
I have decided that I will stay and fight that I look as each day as a gift because I woke up and take joy in watching my grand neice Keller make a shoebox into a boat for her babries and a piece os bubble wrap into a "rug' I get to watch my other 3 year old grand neice grow and explore the world around her,and get to heae my grand nephews say funny things you never know what they are going to come up with only recently the 4 year old told his mom  when she asked him what kind of chips he wanted he told her leg chips he was talking about cheetoes because they look like legs to him.And more import I get to watch the girls I call my grandkids become the strong,indepent woman they can be and last but but not least there is the new baby who needs to get to know me his nana.


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