Karna'NEW NORMAL"

As karma wouid have it I didn't know what new normal was until it happened to me. Let me repeat myself I have a RARE DIEASE there I said it. No ordinary disease for this girl, it be easy to just give up BUT..........................,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

as karma would have it I came into this world a Sipes and we Sipes's are a hard headed bunch of folk and when the going gets tough tbe Sipes in us get going. Ie because I'd be lying if I said this jorney has been an easy I'll tell you the sturggle is real, everything is harder the things I use to take for granted.

I now view life from a wheelchair ,even the simplest things like tuning over in bed is hard for me. As of late my left foot no longer does as its told, it will freeze refusing to move from its spot no matter what I do it is stuck like an invisaable force field has been put into place to prevent it from moving.

The diease has robbed me of  so much like my hand writng once so neat and percise is gone now replaced by what looks like a first grader's handwriting as matter of fact I have grand neice who is in first grade whose writng is better then mine and forget about the 15 years I was a 35plus a minute typer no more all because of the diease I say all this not for anyone to feel bad for me. 

I say all this to say because Ive made peace with it. 

         The disease that is. I'm just glad I was born a Sipes. Or I've given up by now.

                   


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